Morning
Just finish my jap writing test ... dun think i am going to pass this time round. Serve me right for reaching home at 11 last night knowing i am having a jap test the next day! But no regrets for that! heehee i dun wanna miss out the fun last night! had been long b4 4 of us are able to go out! heehee thrEE chEers for that! as for jap test results, i;ve decided to leave it aside!
11.16am now... had not been receive any sms from azfar ... good a good sign! i wish i will receive the result thru sms at ard 6pm in the evening! haha ALL THE BEST GUYS! cadets out there! u guys are simply the best of all! sorry for Not able to make it to the competition cos dun wanna travel alone there! hate traveling! anyway i am so anxious now !!! afriad to hear my phone beeping ... i am scared ...
Heading to shu hse to play with tamme le (doggy)
anyway shall continue blogging this evening cya! gtg!!
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Night
We've lost ... can't get into top 8. Nvr mind at least we tried our best! To all cadets out there ! u guys did a great job! We got 4th this time in east district ! applause to all! Three cheers guys! Life still goes on no matter wad! who knoes we may still continue? thats wad mr halim said ! Sorry for not attending again though i told u guys i am going to support ... but ...
Receive news from juanda, i was singing KTV! Mood sink right to the bottom. Quiet for awhile .. needed some peace .. need some time to face the reality ... though its like expected ... but ... . Sigh .. none came foward to console, i am there all by myself. I am not going to blame anyone cos i knew non of u can understand how i feel ... the bonds we had the bonds i had since sec1 till now ...
Anyway went for dinner with t4 , haha great assumptious meal ... anyway we ate alot ... erm dun wanna list them here cos its sounds real scary!! haha after that went for pool awhile and proceed home.
At pavilion
You told me its common for me to think all these things
You told me u feel that way too
You told me not the stress up for all these tiny little things
Journey back home
You told me it was my fault
You told me u feel weird
You told me i should be the one starting a conversation
You told me everyone will have mood swing
You told me i should have accompanied her
First u told me this and after that u told me that !
Have u ever wondered how hard i've tried so that it will be fair to everyone else ard me! Being sociable is wrong really wrong! i would rather i had my own pals and living in a world consist only us . i am tired ... first u told me T wants to be with me as i seems to be the only person who can make her happy. I left u guys and sat with her . Next i synpathy Y, so i went over and had a chat with her . Now u told me is her.
Let me tell u guys this one last time I AM FARKING TIRED OF SPLITTING MYSELF UP TO "ENTERTAIN" ALL OF U! I AM FREAKING FED UP! I'm daring to say that i will always be there when either of u guys are down ... applies it when i knew wad had happened. But when i'm down? who the hell out there will send their consolation, blarblarblar or whatever shit to me? Sometime i just need something like : u okie mah? really okie mah? dun be sad ... all these words seems to be so hard to be heard from ur mouth.
Why am i always the one that should be starting a conversation? Pleading u guys out there.. pls have a little thought for others ... stop being so selfish. Who knows one day i may just walk off away from u guys to somewhere far ... why must ppl always starts to treasure when they had already lost it . I am feeling so terrible now ... believe me ... i am .!.
